The great big undoing
Change is neither easy nor fast. I once read that it will take friends and family an average of three years to notice change in you. I hope that's true since it's been almost that long since I stitched "Portrait of my artist self holding my corporate self".
I kept the portrait rolled up and stashed in a dark closet until my husband insisted we finally hang it. "It's long past due," he said, and he was right.
It's been almost a year since I decided to let go of the corporate life and venture onto the artist's path. The corporate life has served me well. I am an ace at getting everything done on my to-do list, at keeping a schedule and delivering on time.. I have been able to figure out the accounting software and the sales tax. I am investigating production and marketing. I have mentors and kind supporters. So far so good.
But don't be fooled by this appearance. Underneath, you see, a great big undoing is taking place: I am learning to work happy.
While my corporate career was based almost entirely on finding and solving problems, my art business is tugging in in the opposite direction. Suddenly, I want joy. I want to work with bright colors and make arts and objects that make others happy, inspired. I do not want to be serious. Not now, not for a while.
I do have a few serious projects in the wings. I am finishing those up and will be posting and sharing when complete but there's no turning back.
Friends, I am unraveling. God only knows what my next self portrait will look like. Time is short; I am on the quest for pure joy.